Coming to an end

The year is coming to an end and i thought i should write a reflective blog before i leave. This year has been uncontrollable, and hectic, yet satisfying and informative. And not just academically. I have been told by my entire family my whole life that my senior year is going to be the year that shapes me into my college self and by the way this year went i hope that is not necessarily true. Have there have a lot of up's and down's that have shaped me into a better person, taught me lessons, and helped me realize what i need to do for myself and for my future? ABSOLUTELY YES! On the other hand though there have been times and places i faced this year in my life that i hope to never visit. I know that this year there has been these conflicts for everyone, and what i always tell my friends in tough times, as cliche as it may seem, is: "nothing is ever given to us or happens to us for no reason, we have our entire lives to live and this black cloud over your right now is just something that is going to shape you and make you stronger and wiser in the end." Then while i was out of school last week something hit me, and i got my idea for this blog. i realized that as much advice i give my friends i can't ever really follow it myself. When i was going through bad times earlier this year i did NOT give myself advice, or follow the "wise" things i tell my friends, i sat and wallowed and sulked and complained about EVERYTHING!!! I got a lot of advice from my friends (reiko, peige, koy, bekah, hannah, and hope) and it helped for a bit but then i would sink right back down and any kind of advancement i made was GONE. (please don't take this next few comments as sucking up because that's not what it is) It took my parents, Mrs. Truslow, Mr. Bruno, and a few other admins. at our school to sit me down and share something similar that happened to them or slap some sense into me (mr.b)! And i have these people to thank, my friends and all the adults who were there for me this year. Without them i truly honestly think that i would not have gotten into the schools i had because i would have had no drive, no ambition, to do so. So in conclusion, i guess through the up's and downs, making of new friends and loss of old ones, good grades and bad grades, i have found peace within myself and my life.